This have changed alot over the last month or so...
I experienced sexual harassment in the work place, both directed at me and another coworker. I witnessed sexual discrimination of a male coworker someone thought was gay, he was fired.
I left the private BLS company I was working at and now work for the corporation who handles the 911 system for my city.
I wanted to be just a number, to get lost in the crowd of employees... it seems though that will never happen, as a person I just stand out to much. So another thought, this is a fresh start, no talking shit about the other company to new coworkers, no mouthing off to nurses when they piss me off or do stupid things, no talkin about past coworkers, no talkin about new coworkers, no private life besides my kids as topics of coversations... In otherwords, go to work , do my job, enjoy it and go home. I just want to be near the bottom of the barrel, just high enough that I have some senority on schedules but low enough I dont get touched by office politics. I am going to use this new company to help get involved in community teachings, schools, nursing homes, recreation centers etc... I dont want to pr the company I want to get into reach with children and elderly and teach and learn, our needs as a 911 system and their needs as clients.
I fell in love with my career when I made the change... but like all loves it has to change and grow... this new company is the place to do it and I shall.

Its a different set up and system, but basically its the same job I am picking up on it, but still catch myself being the self assured FTO I was at my old company, I need to sit back shut up and learn from the people I am with now, some have been doing EMT for a long time, others new as fresh bread, both I can learn from.

I am directly involved with the fire departments, I dont want to work for the fire department and there are so many with this company who lick boots often because they do a bridge program. Its sad and annoying and frusterating to watch people do this shit... but one Captain pointed out that I will get notice because I dont do those things. Can I dye my hair brown and disappear into the crowd? Not sure it would matter even if I did.
(smirks) It also sorta puts dating a firefighter out of the question now, sighs, cause they talk...

MJ